Young prince of Houstatlantavegas.
Ghetto University alum. Class of '11
Currently somewhere beyond that.
I’ll swallow my blood before I swallow my pride.
— Al Capone (via beyond-thislife)
I Should’ve Kissed You
Is it wrong that I always let logic determine our permanent place?
In case I fucked up, I’ve bucked up, to discuss us like never before.
Back when a young man was searching for happiness and found it, the ways of the world confound it, instead of just being astounded by a Queen in her most raw form.
Marble taking shape, I played our fate on numbers that don’t sculpt masterpieces.
Parts of me are hardly unaware, or realizing it now. The constant “How?” grows everyday.
The longer it’s stay, the more apt it is to becoming an answer. A simple one a simple girl could appreciate the beauty of.
I should’ve kissed you.
Loved you enough to be selfish. Not for me, for us- our union. Soon enough. You had enough and moved on.
Before I could make way back, the back door you left open for me was locked. A new man stood at the front door with a loaded shot gun.
So I stood outside your window. The place you dream and write. The place you pray and get right.
I hummed a hymn that still echoes in tiny little churches.
It caught your attention. You let me climb up to you.
Did I praise your fair beauty along side the hopelessly romantic moon. Swoon?
No I thought.
Cause, I’m a thot.
I thought maybe if I smoke the signal, you’d cough a callback, and we’d both be slave to the nicotine of our love.
I should’ve have waited to see what you do when, you’ve been waiting your whole life for me to match.
At last, this too did pass, and now I’m sitting here knowing why asking how is an idle action.
While lacking passion
I should’ve asked you
I should’ve told you
I should’ve kissed you
And yes I still miss you like everyday
Wanna be with you
But your away
So I hide in the mob of every march
Waiting for bullets to take me away
So I could be your supernova today
I don’t think I was enough as your star
Hard to admit probably true
So if those faceless killers
Can release me
to the heavens of our stars
I could watch over you
Hovering over you shine a light
On that girl
That I once lost sight
Of, even though it was love
I ain’t goin back no more
Lost at one time 3 of the most important women in my life.
I did everything I could to hold em all together. In that act I lost em all.
The one I want to talk to most I’m not allowed to speak to.
The one I want to leave me alone won’t stop talking at me.
The only one I know would listen is gone forever. RIP.
But I feel that as of today. As of now. I’ve written my last will and testament to these women and am prepared to move forward. No turning back. No more.
And I’m sure tonight when I lay in bed alone with no one to talk to, I’ll still try to reconnect with them in my mind. The journey ahead is long and misty.
But I’m ready. And as always I’ll stay up…WAY UP🙏